Make A Bigger Dream

“All men dream: but not equally. Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their minds wake in the day to find that it was vanity: but the dreamers of the day are dangerous men, for they may act their dreams with open eyes, to make it possible.”
Lawrence of Arabia (1888-1935)

I have no intention whatsoever to challenge the stability of the mousetrap. I haven’t been eating cheese since couple of years

I was there sitting under the tree, enjoying my lunch when I suddenly blurted out something like I don’t mind to have my book published in English. I’ve always known to say something first then think later. I have no intention whatsoever to challenge the stability of the mousetrap. I haven’t been eating cheese since couple of years.

So saying something outrageous like that can be seen as something subversive, same as having a big dream, set your eyes to the goal and move forward. My lunch mate (I’m sure she didn’t mean to destroy my dream, maybe she’s just too afraid to get out of the trap) said nonchalantly, yeah. Keep on dreaming.

I didn’t know how or when I was going to Europe. I just knew I would go there one day

Since we were young, we were always told not to dream too big or else you would be disappointed if you couldn’t achieve it. But we wouldn’t fly on the jet plane if those scientists (along with the brave test pilots) never dreamed of flying beyond the sound barrier. The big inventions always start from a dream, but unlike the normal dreamers, those are the people who dream with eyes wide open. Those are the dangerous men.

The crystal merchant in Paulo Coelho’s The Alchemist also had a dream. He had been dreaming of going to Mecca for a long time, but he preferred to keep on dreaming. Afraid of having nothing else to dream after he had made his big dream come true, he decided to hold himself not going even though he had enough money and would have rather watched longingly the pilgrims on their way to Mecca.

Suddenly I couldn’t dream anymore since my biggest dream was no longer a dream.

Some people have dreams. The decision to pursue them or not, that’s what makes the difference. When I was on mid 20s, I had a dream of going to Europe. For most Indonesians, going abroad is something very luxurious. Only people with a lot of money who can afford it. I was just (and still am) an ordinary girl with a simple job. I didn’t know how or when I was going to Europe. I just knew I would go there one day.

My mom said, how can you afford that trip? And I knew I  just went from Korea one year earlier after spending most of my saving from one whole year busting my ass working hard. I just said, I will be there before I’m 30. Outrageous as it was, my dream came true when I turned exactly 29 years old.

So how does it feel when your dream finally come true? I feel like it’s a dream yet it’s not. I felt my senses were overwhelmed with so many sensations. I kept saying, is it true? when the boundaries between what is true, what is real, what is dream, what is not are very very very thin so I couldn’t tell. But just as my crystal merchant from The Alchemist, after I realized my big dream, suddenly I had some disorientation and lost the sense of purpose. Suddenly I couldn’t dream anymore since my biggest dream was no longer a dream. I was a kite without an anchor.

For three years I was lost in the search of a bigger dream. I need something that most of the people would say that’s impossible. The search didn’t feel good either. I didn’t know what else to pursue. I just wanted to stretch the barrier even further now.

“I still feel like I gotta prove something. … There are a lot of people hoping I fail. But I like that. I need to be hated.”

So inspired by those scientists and the brave test pilots who always dreamed of the other side of the sound barrier, I finally found my next big dream when I was daydreaming (sounds like a good rhyme, doesn’t it?) three years later. My dream looks like this: I live in a house by the sea which is free from tsunami or earthquake with my three cats (and my partner). I don’t have to drive to get around, I have my bicycle. I spend my time brainstorming with my magician or writing those nagging random thoughts to keep my sanity and then publish it and share it with whoever who would listen in some small group discussions.

Sounds impossible enough for you? Good.

So to conclude my note today, I would like to put a quote once more since this is all about a dream, the courage to dream and to realize that, and never let anyone throw that away from you or even laugh at you just because they’re too afraid to dream. This is from Howard Stern and I hope you are one of those who dream with eyes open and always need to be hated.

“I still feel like I gotta prove something. … There are a lot of people hoping I fail. But I like that. I need to be hated.”
Howard Stern (1954-  )

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